Since becoming ill, I seem to be scared of doing almost everything alone these days, except work because that can be done online from my home. Now that would be a major problem, if it weren’t for the fact that I use a wheelchair meaning that there is always someone (normally my partner) pushing me around.
And what would it take me to do things?
Well that is fairly obvious to anyone that knows me because …
- I can be stubborn, but this also means that I am fairly determined.
- Talking to people has never been a problem for me as I am very extrovert. Therefore, I would set about making contact with people who could help me do the things that I still enjoy. I might even employ a personal carer.
- Suddenly, I would just have to start using buses, trains and if necessary taxis to get around.
- Probably, stop my job because of all the things that need arranging. Oh, and maybe employ a professional chef to prepare my meals as I do like very good food.
So nothing is impossible, but it does remind me how much I rely on my partner. Some things would be much better, because much of my anxiety comes from not doing things that might upset my partner (who is an introvert, control freak and wants to do everything himself).
I’d really rather not consider the possibility, but what will be, will be and I will just adjust my life accordingly.
bibbysmith 
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